She wakes up several times throughout the night and prays each time. She wonders why everyone does not pray ...it's so much easier to cope with life, understanding it more clearly. But she sort of understands. She had just gone through a tremendous trial, only because she'd doubted and let the deception of other agendas influence her thoughts. The world is full of falsely promoted agendas. There are so many reasons and so many beliefs that draw us away from the truth. God loves us ...so much! And He has done everything to allow us to continue to know that! He guides us, and leads us ...as long as we don't lead ourselves away, or allow someone else to lead us. And when we get so confused, God provides a way to return to following Him. God's greatest revelation of His love ...was in sending His Son, Jesus!